I think it's just about time..
yea..well i mean this could be rough sometimes
and this is just like hows the universe works
undetectable..
undenyable..
life made us cruel
sometimes i think that im the most intolerable person on earth
i'm so unsocialize,
unsociable cud be means have no intention for all those things, such as like what other people done.uughhh...
i know thats sounds pathetic,really pathetic..
here on earth we made ourselves think beyond our expectations,that's cruel..
i didn't mean to be M-E-A-N!!!but if u think more deeply, what you can say ??
sometimes we have to be cruel to stand in line for godsake of our opinion
what i'm trying to discuss right here is just my opinion
and my visions about something, well..im not saying that i want to argue with those of you
it's just i need some media to represent all of those things,
i just want to explode it all together with you
i think that would be so much better that alone, right??
cud u imagine i discuss these by myself? how PATHETIC i am...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Big Bounce
He said that i live with my own buble
Is it true..?
Maybe he's right, it's just hard to socialize with new people
Minimizing the possibility of getting hurt at the first place
It's preventive..
and i say,how pitiable is that?
What's more ironic about it (and this is particularly,my favorite part indeed!)
Is that...that pitiable doing was my own stupidity.
So i don't wanna dramatize it too much!, for my own sake.
God,this is totally the lowest point of my life as an adult.
And as far as my eyes can see, after this, are things are getting any easier?
I guess i have to prepared for the worst.
Memang harapan itu masih ada.
And thank god for that!
Tapi...sekarang gw ngga' mau berharap terlalu banyak juga.
Karena keseringannya, life does not always turn out the way you planned it to...
So help me God. Throw me a lifeline here...
I need another distraction...
A good one,this time.
Or maybe just a good sleep?
Is it true..?
Maybe he's right, it's just hard to socialize with new people
Minimizing the possibility of getting hurt at the first place
It's preventive..
and i say,how pitiable is that?
What's more ironic about it (and this is particularly,my favorite part indeed!)
Is that...that pitiable doing was my own stupidity.
So i don't wanna dramatize it too much!, for my own sake.
God,this is totally the lowest point of my life as an adult.
And as far as my eyes can see, after this, are things are getting any easier?
I guess i have to prepared for the worst.
Memang harapan itu masih ada.
And thank god for that!
Tapi...sekarang gw ngga' mau berharap terlalu banyak juga.
Karena keseringannya, life does not always turn out the way you planned it to...
So help me God. Throw me a lifeline here...
I need another distraction...
A good one,this time.
Or maybe just a good sleep?
And Life Goes On..
After all these times
After all these years..
I'm just sittin' and waiting..
Lay down here..
Runing away from reality
He break my heart
He torn it apart
He break it fall away into pieces
till the time is running outthen there's no way to turning back
I'm just in my next step from my future life,
Out of sight, out of timewhen it's begin right here, right now..
It's time to move along
Move along without someone who's haunted everyday
every hour, every minute, every second, every breath..
It's time to let go
It's time to release it
Let me go..let me move on
I can survive without you
I can make it without you
Just let go off me..
Don't you dare to stop me
Don't you dare to ruin me
Don't you ever dare..!!
After all these years..
I'm just sittin' and waiting..
Lay down here..
Runing away from reality
He break my heart
He torn it apart
He break it fall away into pieces
till the time is running outthen there's no way to turning back
I'm just in my next step from my future life,
Out of sight, out of timewhen it's begin right here, right now..
It's time to move along
Move along without someone who's haunted everyday
every hour, every minute, every second, every breath..
It's time to let go
It's time to release it
Let me go..let me move on
I can survive without you
I can make it without you
Just let go off me..
Don't you dare to stop me
Don't you dare to ruin me
Don't you ever dare..!!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Our Past..
Semua orang punya masa lalu..
Entah itu menyenangkan atau justru hal yang paling kelam dalam hidup.
Seumur hidup masa lalu memang akan selalu jadi bagian yang tidak akan terlupa.
Bila itu menyedihkan mungkin itu ibarat borok yang terus dibawa-bawa.
Sebagian orang punya masa lalu yang begitu pahit, hingga ia tidak lagi peka akan
hal-hal yang bisa membuat sebagian orang sedih.
Karena ia tidak lagi punya airmata untuk bisa mengungkapkannya.
Entah berapa ratus kali mimpi buruk itu mungkin datang dan membuat tidak bisa tidur
berhari-hari, sehingga lingkaran hitam di matanya nampak semakin jelas.
Masa lalu itu begitu nampak jelas dalam matanya.
Saat kamu liat itu ke dalam matanya kamu pasti akan tau bagaimana dia tersakiti.
Saat ia bercerita saya hampir tidak mampu melihatnya.
Saya tidak mampu berkata-kata.
Tidak henti-hentinya saya berpikir mengapa dia.
Begitu banyak orang jahat dan nista di dunia ini, tapi mengapa dia.
Kamu tidak akan pernah menyangka bagaimana dia menanggung semua penderitaannya sendirian.
Dia punya masa lalu..
Begitupun saya..
Masa lalu kami mungkin seringkali membuat kami takut melangkah,
namun hidup terus bergulir dan kenyataan ada di depan mata.
Saya dan dia hanyalah sebagian kecil orang dengan masa lalu yang pahit.
Dan kami tidak pernah berhenti berharap suatu saat penderitaan yang kami alami akan
tergantikan dengan sesuatu yang bisa membuat kami bahagia.
Masa lalu tetaplah menjadi bagian dari dia, saya, dan kita semua.
Kami tidak pernah menyesali masa lalu kami yang pahit.
Karena tanpa masa lalu itu kami tidak akan pernah mampu menjadi diri kami yang seperti sekarang ini.
Entah itu menyenangkan atau justru hal yang paling kelam dalam hidup.
Seumur hidup masa lalu memang akan selalu jadi bagian yang tidak akan terlupa.
Bila itu menyedihkan mungkin itu ibarat borok yang terus dibawa-bawa.
Sebagian orang punya masa lalu yang begitu pahit, hingga ia tidak lagi peka akan
hal-hal yang bisa membuat sebagian orang sedih.
Karena ia tidak lagi punya airmata untuk bisa mengungkapkannya.
Entah berapa ratus kali mimpi buruk itu mungkin datang dan membuat tidak bisa tidur
berhari-hari, sehingga lingkaran hitam di matanya nampak semakin jelas.
Masa lalu itu begitu nampak jelas dalam matanya.
Saat kamu liat itu ke dalam matanya kamu pasti akan tau bagaimana dia tersakiti.
Saat ia bercerita saya hampir tidak mampu melihatnya.
Saya tidak mampu berkata-kata.
Tidak henti-hentinya saya berpikir mengapa dia.
Begitu banyak orang jahat dan nista di dunia ini, tapi mengapa dia.
Kamu tidak akan pernah menyangka bagaimana dia menanggung semua penderitaannya sendirian.
Dia punya masa lalu..
Begitupun saya..
Masa lalu kami mungkin seringkali membuat kami takut melangkah,
namun hidup terus bergulir dan kenyataan ada di depan mata.
Saya dan dia hanyalah sebagian kecil orang dengan masa lalu yang pahit.
Dan kami tidak pernah berhenti berharap suatu saat penderitaan yang kami alami akan
tergantikan dengan sesuatu yang bisa membuat kami bahagia.
Masa lalu tetaplah menjadi bagian dari dia, saya, dan kita semua.
Kami tidak pernah menyesali masa lalu kami yang pahit.
Karena tanpa masa lalu itu kami tidak akan pernah mampu menjadi diri kami yang seperti sekarang ini.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Slightly Impressed
This last couple of days, apprently wud be such a very interesting moment for me.
Entah kenapa saya bisa bilang gini. But i'm totally slightly impressed with someone.
He's good..i mean, he's good..good, certainly smart, outgoing, fun.
And the very thing that i'd like about him coz he can make me laugh.
I'm feelin' stupid and i laugh about it, and he even doesn't have to try it.
I'm talkin bout the donkey..
Yup the donkey lovey dovey that i already mentioned in this previous blog.
Okie..so here's the thing..here's the fact
Yes, i'm soooo happy and excited bout him.
Dunno for sure, that i fallin love again with this guy or not.
Yes, i can be myself for who i really am when i near with him.
Yes, i feel this heart pounding.
Yes, i feel like there's a butterfly in my stomach.
Dunno for sure, that is he give me a "sign" or not.
But i definitely sure that this is some kind of good moment for me, when he's around...
Entah kenapa saya bisa bilang gini. But i'm totally slightly impressed with someone.
He's good..i mean, he's good..good, certainly smart, outgoing, fun.
And the very thing that i'd like about him coz he can make me laugh.
I'm feelin' stupid and i laugh about it, and he even doesn't have to try it.
I'm talkin bout the donkey..
Yup the donkey lovey dovey that i already mentioned in this previous blog.
Okie..so here's the thing..here's the fact
Yes, i'm soooo happy and excited bout him.
Dunno for sure, that i fallin love again with this guy or not.
Yes, i can be myself for who i really am when i near with him.
Yes, i feel this heart pounding.
Yes, i feel like there's a butterfly in my stomach.
Dunno for sure, that is he give me a "sign" or not.
But i definitely sure that this is some kind of good moment for me, when he's around...
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Meet My Donkey Lovey Dovey
Kira-kira tepat seminggu yang lalu beberapa temen jaman sd dulu ngadain acara reunian kecil-kecilan,
Well namanya juga kecil2an jadi yang dateng juga ngga'banyak.
But still i'm so excited dengan kemunculan temen2 yang udah lamaaaaa banget ngga'pernah ketemuan.
Berubah banget..ya,memang banyak yang berubah... Ada yang dulunya culun, kecil kurus, tapi sekarang malah berubah total jadi good looking, ada juga yang ngga' berubah sama sekali.
Talking bout the reunion itselves, ada kehadiran seseorang yang sebenernya amat sangat ngga' saya sangka.
Cinta pertama saya...yes...u can laugh all day wherever you like, dan goshhh..saya sama sekali ngga'nyangka dia ada juga.
He's different...sekarang dia amat sangat friendly..ngga' kaya'waktu jaman sd dulu.
He's totally different..dulu tuh ya..dia belagu, soookkkk bangeett deh..
Pas ketemu lagi i can feel the butterfly effect on my stomach.
Dari awal acara reunian itu kita berdua lumayan ngobrol panjang lebar, and u know what...dia teman bicara yang amat sangat menyenangkan...very much indeed.
But heyy...saya masih belum tau apa yang akan terjadi nantinya, dan saya belum mau berharap banyak dari pertemuan dengan si donkey lovey dovey ini.
Well...i never really expect anything from these kinda situations.
But definitely...i'm happpppyyyy...
Well namanya juga kecil2an jadi yang dateng juga ngga'banyak.
But still i'm so excited dengan kemunculan temen2 yang udah lamaaaaa banget ngga'pernah ketemuan.
Berubah banget..ya,memang banyak yang berubah... Ada yang dulunya culun, kecil kurus, tapi sekarang malah berubah total jadi good looking, ada juga yang ngga' berubah sama sekali.
Talking bout the reunion itselves, ada kehadiran seseorang yang sebenernya amat sangat ngga' saya sangka.
Cinta pertama saya...yes...u can laugh all day wherever you like, dan goshhh..saya sama sekali ngga'nyangka dia ada juga.
He's different...sekarang dia amat sangat friendly..ngga' kaya'waktu jaman sd dulu.
He's totally different..dulu tuh ya..dia belagu, soookkkk bangeett deh..
Pas ketemu lagi i can feel the butterfly effect on my stomach.
Dari awal acara reunian itu kita berdua lumayan ngobrol panjang lebar, and u know what...dia teman bicara yang amat sangat menyenangkan...very much indeed.
But heyy...saya masih belum tau apa yang akan terjadi nantinya, dan saya belum mau berharap banyak dari pertemuan dengan si donkey lovey dovey ini.
Well...i never really expect anything from these kinda situations.
But definitely...i'm happpppyyyy...
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