Reality Bites

I just saw oprah dengan bintang tamu Dina Mcgreevy yang baru saja meluncurkan buku 'silent partner'.Dina adalah mantan istri dari Jim Mcgreevy, which is the former governor yang baru mengaku dirinya adalah seorang 'gay'.Dan Jim membuat press conference untuk hal ini..

Oh...God..cud u ever imagined if this happened in ur life?

I mean...this cud be happened to anyone..

Entah apa yang ada di pikiran Jim saat itu, yang jelas melalui interview yang dilakukan Oprah, selama pernikahannya Jim tidak pernah sekalipun mengatakan pada Dina bahwa dirinya seorang 'gay'.For cryin sake...what the hell that he thinking??

Cud he ever imagine the damage that he bring into her life?

He wreck it.., and she fall into peices..absolutely..saya merasa iba dengan apa yang dialami Dina.And they have a daughter from the marriage.It also the second marriage for Jim.

In his former marriage he also have a daughter who lives in British Columbia.

Saya rasa dia bukan hanya gay tapi seorang biseksual.Alasan Dina menikahi Jim adalah rasa cinta yang dia punya.Dina mengatakan dirinya sangat mencintai Jim,sehingga tidak bisa melihat apa yang sebenarnya terjadi pada suaminya sendiri.Sedangkan Jim mengatakan ia menikahinya untuk tujuan politik. How bad is that..?

Kejujuran...,jelas ini aspek yang diabaikan..

Tidak ada kejujuran dari satu pihak terhadap pihak lainnya entah karena alasan takut menyakiti atau apapun itu adalah omong kosong.Karena pada akhirnya apapun itu pasti akan menyakiti orang lain, cepat atau lambat.
You live in ur own buble..ini aspek kedua, dimana seringkali kita menutupi kenyataan yang sebenarnya telah kita ketahui,namun karena dengan alasan 'itu adalah hal wajar, semua orang melakukan kesalahan, dan mungkin ini adalah kesalahan analisa saya'kita seringkali mengacuhkan insting kita.Kita hanya hidup dalam dunia kita yang menganggap bahwa 'everything's ok, everything's in order, everything's in the right place',dan kita memilih untuk tidak melihat kedalam dunia yang sebenarnya.., yang seringkali menyakiti kita.Apa yang saya alami memang tidak setragis Dina Mcgreevy.Namun apa yang terjadi dalam kehidupan, saya menghancurkan kepercayaan saya pada semua orang yang saya kenal.Rasa percaya saya pada semua orang menghilang,and im in my healing process,and it also definitely true that i have to work harder to get back on track, and to get recovered.Reality bites..it happened..and it sucks..but it also true that in all the process of lifewe learn so much about love and hurts, and thats the point of being human..feel it.

Great Expectations

We all think we're going to be great.
And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met.
But sometimes our expectations sell us short.
Sometimes the expected, simply pales in comparison to the unexpected.
You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations.
Because the expected is just what keep us steady,standing..still
The expected's just the beginning.
The unexpected is what changes our lives.

Life Is A Game

Life is a game,a game that you should decide weather you want to win it or lose it..and in the end it's always about winning or losing,
is it always have to be that way??
Seriously?
Seriously..i never wanted becoming a loser,but i have a doubt about to be a winner..
It seems looks like i don't see any plans at all,
about to be a winner and speaking of any plans..
i'm the one who always has a plan,but in realities..
sometimes it's just don't go well and when it doesn't go well..
i becoming a super pesimistic person on earth,
which always and always made me feel empty..
Empty.., and i don't feel anything..not sad..not happy..just empty..
and it's terrible..totaly horrible..which freaking me out..

Pain is...

Pain comes in all forms
the small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain,the normal pains we live with everyday..Then there's the kind of pain u can't ignore.
A level of pain so great,that it blocks out everything else and makes the rest of the world fade away..
Until all we can think about'is how much we hurt..
How we manage our pain is up to us..Pain..we anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it,ignore it..
And for some of us, the best way to manage pain
is just to push through it.