stop it, i'm tired..

These days, i'm soberly observing about my love life..
It's pretty complicated actually,
And i feel compelled to share it..
It's always the same for me, break up break down.
Several times in love, several times broken heart, and made me realize that i'm not even in relationships with that guy. Yes, i'm telling the truth, i just love that guy but practically i didn't even show that to him. How pathetic..maybe.
But i just had an idea about how a guy should make a move first.
Sounds conservative you name it.., coz i'm kinda old-fashioned girl.
It's true that he bugs me almost 70% of my time.
Also true that i was afraid to show it, always..and always.
Till he had no clue at all how to deal with me, and just leave.
Just like my father did.
And you know what..i begin assuming, maybe it's a bad timing, or maybe he's just too 'into' me, or then again maybe he thinks that i don't really deserve him, well..it's just came out from my mind anyway.
I also think about..maybe..just maybe..i don't really love him anyway, maybe..i'm not sure of it.
Well finally there's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up.
I guess this is it.
Too many heartache not good for my health.
Here it is, more or less, another wasted love story.
Well my platonic guy..wishing you had a good life with that girl.

x.o.x.o
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